Sho-kun~ 32nd Birthday~

Otanjoubi Omedettou Sho-kun~

32 huh, still young don't worry.

Don't stop being an Arashi, be cool as always

and what I love about you the most is your laugh, hahahaha (I'm weird, I know.)

We'll pray for your happiness, prosperity and health! ;)

Challenges Only Make You Stronger

This year, I became a form 5 students, 17 years old and that only means I have lots of challenges coming after me in the future.
It happened.
Lots of things happened even though it was just the start of the year. Lots of homework in just only a day. I have to help my parents in their business of selling satay in front of the house. I have problems with Biology and Physics lesson. So much that I'm beginning to lose hope a little. It almost saddened me. I'm beginning to ask myself what I should do?
And also I'm beginning to think about friends. As a JPOP fan, I know I have to take this challenge. Which is I will not have friends at school who have the same interest. People often said that a best friend shared the same interest with you. So in my case, I don't know if I should categorized my close friends as my 'best friend'. And that is why I have to endure myself until I reach the age where I can find my own friend around the world who actually have the same interest as me. There is time where I almost shed tears because of that. And right now, writing this almost made me shed my tears. Not wanting to let my friends know about my sadness, I endured it. I have to. In order to have my ultimate happiness of a friend, I have to endure it.
That is why, Challenges Only Make You Stronger. I want to believe that. Lots of things happened to me lately, with a tons of homework, the Biology and Physics lesson, and also Additional Mathematics lesson. Add Math for short, is becoming tougher each topics. Learning that also makes me lose a little hope in learning and I felt tired learning of it. But then I realized that I have to and this lesson and other lessons hold my destiny and my future.
So I want to tell myself, "Stay strong girl. One day you will have what you want." and hold my favorite quote that is "No one is born a genius. Just keep on doing what you like and that itself is a talent." by Ohno Satoshi.
This tiniest little thing really love to make me cry, huh. I cried a little though, hahaha. I'm so weak at this kind of things. I always have the urged to almost cry at this such little things.
I know. I'm weak. Because I'm the type of person who can easily cry over small things.
I wanna pray to God to help me endure this and grant my wishes of having a true friend.
Amin~

Starting of this year is... Sadness

As what the title is, the starting of this new year is full of sadness.
Firstly, I was so happy that I'm going to be, once again, learning with my former classmates. But everything started after I heard lots of rumors about the reshuffle of my class. My classmates told me that only our class that are going to reshuffle. Hearing that makes me so sad and also mad at the same time. Why? Because my school teachers actually, hiding somewhere in their heart, hated us. While teaching us of course, nothing are shown through their personality but those were lies. I noticed it somehow but I was wondering, weren't they were the same like us when they were young? They should understand. Well I want to understand teenagers when I grow up. Knowing how my generation goes, I want to understand them because you are only young once.
My school's percentage of girls are like 70% while boys are 30%. So it will be really rare to have a class with half boys and the other half girls. In other words, my class consists of 32 students, so half of them are boys and another half are girls. My class is the only class that are called the 'normal' class. My class when I was 12 years old was the exact same because the students are well-balanced with boys and girls. So when I moved to this school, the surrounding changed and at first I felt awkward with it. But somehow I get used to it and when I became form 4 student, 16 years old, the class surrounding changed back to before I came to this school. It will also be awkward because I already adapted with few boys but somehow I missed the old one. Since I'm the anti-social type and also afraid to start a conversation with boys, I never talked to one of them, only a few which I came to be comfortable with. Just as when I wanted to be friend with them this year because our friendship somehow close after all of the things we done like class party and such, this things happened. the sudden reshuffling our class.
You could just tell us that you hated us. I don't mind. This sudden things made us more sadder than ever. Some of us cried, the boys almost cried, the class representative apologized. Isn't this tells that our friendship became closer after spending one year together? It will be even more closer if we spent another more. It saddens me even more to see them boys cried. Knowing that they like being with us makes me happy but seeing them go while almost crying is just too sad.
But what can we do. They hated us. After the reshuffling, when some teachers asked where are the former boys of this class, in a disappointed voice, we said they moved to the other class. Wanna know what they said? "It's a relief to know that I'm not teaching them." Listening to those words means a lot, right. And of course, what I know from those words is that they hated us and doesn't want to teach us.
This is actually what I feel and I wanted to share to whoever reading this. I know that this is a bit too much if you're going to complaint but I can't help it. The sadness is overload and this is my blog. I can write whatever I want. No one can judge me.